You've been here before...
Ever found yourself in a situation or place and felt your energy drop?
You might repeat this same moment many times ( maybe more than you’d like to admit to yourself ) before one day something shifts.
A little delicate bubble of a thought floats to the surface.
“I don’t want do this anymore.”
Maybe you listen to it. Maybe you don’t.
That thought has showed itself to you for a reason. That inner voice that cares about you and knows what it is you need.
I ignored my own inner voice for over 5 years.
I told myself I had to keep on going. Plodding along in job that was taking away from me a lot more than it was giving.
Waiting for someone to give me permission to change.
Eventually I built up my self worth and give MYSELF the permission to say what I needed. When I finally spoke the words I needed to say they were almost the same ones I had been thinking and saying for years.
But now they had power. Now they were real and I wasn’t asking anymore.
“I don’t want to do this anymore. I am leaving medicine.”
I was declaring it into the world.
I’ve never regretted that decision. Showing myself the same love, care and respect that I gave to everyone else in my life was a vital lesson I had to learn.
Be conscious of those delicate thoughts. If they keep arising again and again figure out what they are trying to tell you and act on them.
And if you can’t figure it out alone find someone who can help you.
You deserve it.